Reverse Culture Shock

Students who study abroad are often taught to expect reverse culture shock when they return. The Office of International Education at Marquette University writes:

Reverse culture shock, or re-entry, is simply a common reaction to returning home from studying abroad. It is an emotional and psychological stage of re-adjustment, similar to your initial adjustment to living abroad…. Your reactions to re-entry may vary, but common signs are:

  • Restlessness 
  • Rootlessness
  • Boredom 
  • Depression
  • Uncertainty
  • Confusion
  • Isolation
  • Wanting to be alone
  • “Reverse homesickness”

The same holds true for those of us who weren’t studying abroad, but were living abroad for a semester. My husband and I landed in Chicago on Sunday afternoon. We forgot to get American money at O’Hare before our friend picked us up. We arrived home with some leftover pounds, Euros and a few other currencies. Oh, and five large suitcases and duffels full of (mostly clean) clothes and souvenirs from six months across the pond.

We have a comfortable, but not spacious (by American standards) home in suburban Milwaukee. After six months in a one bedroom flat in Glasgow, our comfortable home feels HUGE. Our bathroom – by no means one of those over-the-top could fit a family of four inside it bathrooms – feels ENORMOUS. We have too much room and too much stuff – we managed fine in our little flat. Someday, hopefully just a few years down the road, we’d like to find a smaller place for us in a location that doesn’t require the constant use of a car to take care of our needs. In Glasgow, we were car-less. Everything we needed was either in walking distance, or bus or subway distance. Even when my knee got wonky, there was a grocery store, a cafe and a library all a short distance from our flat.

We are adjusting, re-adjusting, re-acclimating. Our wake-up time is becoming more normal. My husband fell asleep on the couch last night and when I went to wake him to come to bed, he opened his eyes and I could almost see the question marks flashing there. “Where the hell are we?” he asked. I know the feeling. I’ve looked the wrong way to cross the street. Reached for a light switch where it would have been in Glasgow. Tentatively put my hand under running water (lest it burn me because for some reason the water heaters must be set to scorch in Glasgow).

It’s cool in Milwaukee this week and we’re very grateful for that. It could have been hot and stifling and that would have been far harder to adjust to after Glasgow.

I haven’t experienced every emotion listed above as a warning to students, but I am wrestling at times with “reverse homesickness”. I miss being able to walk everywhere. I miss my Glasgow Writers Group friends. I miss one thing I hadn’t expected to — the fact that my phone almost never rang. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE being able to talk to family and friends so much more easily, but the carpet cleaning company has already left a message. There were robocalls in my voice mail from some political action groups. I am not delighted to be returning to that level of accessibility. I miss Glasgow Green, milk chocolate digestives, the ever-changing action in George Square, the fish and chips place down the road from us, the fish market a few blocks away, the double-decker red bus full of tourists, the sea gulls soaring down the streets just above those tourists, the sounds of bagpipes or Alice Cooper imitators from Buchanan Street…. I miss so many things from Glasgow already.

But, aye, it’s true, there are things I am happy to leave behind, and that’s a post for another day.

I thank all of you who have so graciously welcomed me back to the U.S. and who have shared my journey here and on Facebook. I am especially grateful for the great numbers of you who have expressed your appreciation for the pictures I’ve shared on Facebook. I was quite anxious about over-doing it and thank you all again. May any re-entries you face be as smooth as possible — just don’t regret the bumps. They can be good teachers.

And, for a final image, I have to add one that takes me back to high school and watching this show with my mother in the den of our second house:

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Your Writing Tenets

*****I know bloggers are “supposed” to end posts with a call for response. I don’t do that often because it bugs me and feels so contrived. But, this post is specifically for writers (the rest of you may click out now :-) ), and does end with a call for response. I’d really love to hear your thoughts! Merci.****

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L to R, Pam Parker, Christine Kathleen McMahon, Alan Heathcock, Amory Casto, Halliday Reynolds, Maggie Wheeler and Marc Allan

 

Our workshops at the Mont Blanc Writing Workshops often began with a discussion of a particular craft-point by Alan Heathcock. Toward the end of our first week, he talked about a letter he had written to his students after he completed writing his short story collection, VOLT. (FYI – VOLT won multiple awards — NY Times Editors’ Choice, Publishers Weekly Best Book, Whiting Award Winner and twelve more! If you haven’t read it yet, what are you waiting for??) We discussed the tenets and you can learn more about them in two ways. There’s a pdf of the letter and 27 tenets here or, listen to a podcast of Alan discussing the tenets here.

Here are a few of my faves from Alan’s 27 personal tenets on writing:

5. FEEL your character’s struggle. Make yourself weep and angry and tired. Make yourself swoon. Find out what it means to be someone who is not you.

14. Reveal something in your endings, creating a convergence of plot and story. Write the ending in a way it doesn’t feel tidy. Be French with your endings.

24. You must give yourself up to the story. Eliminate yourself. It’s not about you.

We spent time discussing the tenets by which we each try to live and work, defining them and then, the importance of “abiding with them” (Alan’s phrase – I love it.). I think for me, I fall down most often at the “abiding with them,” idea. I am going to continue to work on that!

Alan challenged each of us to come up with one tenet of our own to keep in mind and here they are. A few folks did more than one idea/tenet:

Marc Allan – Write something you would read. If you think what you’ve written is bad or
boring, imagine how bad or boring the reader will think it is

Amory Casto – Treat everything you write like a new foreign language that only you understand.  Translate it all until the reader is fluent.

Christine Kathleen McMahon – Familiarize the unfamiliar so completely that your reader – regardless of whether they like the story or characters – cannot claim to have misunderstood what you are communicating.

Pam Parker – Seek to be the best writer you can be, not the best writer.

Halliday Reynolds – Go all the way to the end of the idea. Take everything you write and make it stranger, the language slightly unfamiliar.

Maggie Wheeler – Outlining is not the practice of the amateur; it is a creative a process.

So, writer friends, perhaps one of these tenets is what you need to post in your workspace or on your computer??

But, a far better exercise is to set a timer for five minutes (if you need the whole timer thing – some do, some don’t :-) ) and come up with a writing tenet or two that you need to abide with in your writing right now. Then, won’t you share it here in the comments?

#happywriting

 

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When the Wind is Wispy….

In the almost six years I’ve been blogging here at Pamwrites, my topics and audience have both broadened. Initially, my posts were almost all for emerging writers. In the last few years, I’ve become less anxious about writing about life in general – the people, things and places that move me and why. But there are two topics I still approach with anxiety — religion and politics.

In the U.S., religion has become a word layered with meanings that don’t always apply — things like religious people are pushy, arrogant, ignorant, self-absorbed and let’s not forget, they’re also know-it-alls who are always right. Generally, these labels are tacked onto the fundamentalist Christian right in the States, but the media condemnation of them has unfortunately lead to a broader painting of all Christians with those labels. I’m not here to try to convert any one. I’m writing now because I need to understand where I am with my faith and perhaps, in my doing that, I might help someone else in their struggle. I believe my writing is a gift that blesses me, and sometimes, blesses others.

I often think of my faith like the wind – it can be still and hard to find and follow. It can be strong and fierce and clear. Lately, it is wispy. So, for me, that means, I need to get my butt in a pew. I need to put myself in the presence of others who at that moment are likely stronger in their faith. I need to be open to whatever may be waiting that I need to receive.

But, the Queen of Excuses was voicing her opinions. Putting this butt in a pew, while I’m in the French Alps, seemed unnecessary. Mountains sing to my soul. Mountains fill me with a gratitude for this life, for these moments, for something that I can not understand that created all this beauty and allowed me to experience it.

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Being in Chamonix is so close to a prayerful existence, did I really need to go to church when I wouldn’t understand two-thirds of what happened due to language? And, did the nearest service I could find have to be Catholic? This is what the lovely little Eglise Saint-Michel de Chamonix-Mont Blanc looked like this morning:

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Long before I was born, my paternal grandfather treated my mother and her brothers in an evil, misguided way. Unfortunately, even though I had plenty of lovely Catholic folks in my extended family and friends, he became the embodiment of all that was wrong with Catholicism for me — he was a through and through hypocrite whose actions have echoed down through the generations. One of his sons treated his own children as badly, though he didn’t think so because at least he paid the legally-mandated child support. Because of Grandfather (who never earned Grandpa from me), I’ve had to remind myself over and over again, he alone does not represent that faith.

The odds were stacking up against going. Catholic mass? En francais? While living in the Alps? I really didn’t want to go; and that’s exactly when I knew I had to. Something much bigger than me wanted me there. Okay, fine, I’ll go.

About ten minutes before the service, I slid into a pew toward the back of Eglise Saint-Michel. I stood, baguette in hand, almost ready to sit, debating if I should move in or stay toward the outside. A thin woman in front of me turned awkwardly, her body bobbing and weaving with signs of an aggressive neurologic disorder, reminding me of a friend with MS. She reached for my arm, twice before she met her mark, and pulled me toward her. I understood her French enough to know that she was trying to save the place I had taken for someone coming late with a baby. Probably her daughter who would give her a ride home, I thought. In French, I explained that I’d be happy to move as I doubted I’d stay for the whole service since my French wasn’t so good anyway. She corrected me, saying my French was “superbe” and asked where I was from.

“Des Etats-Unis. Et vous? Vous habitez a Chamonix? (The U.S. You live in Chamonix?)

“Oui, toujours.”  (Yes, always.)

“C’est une ville très, très jolie.”  (It’s a very beautiful town.)

She wished me a good vacation and I moved back a row. When I set my baguette and purse on the seat she was trying to save, she jerked and turned, flashing me two wobbly thumbs up and a smile.

I sat for a few more minutes before the service, fighting tears.

Okay, I get it. I know. I was supposed to be here.

You see, for me, in the loud windy times or the wispy quiet times, this thing I call “God” – goodness and love – is a force that shows me, over and over again, we are here to strive — over and over again — to be goodness and love wherever and whenever we can. When a disabled woman, who can barely control her physical movements, can manage to sit and worship and say, “Rendez grace au Seigneur qui, seul, fait des merveilles,” and mean it, well, I guess I can sit and worship, waiting and watching for when I am asked to be goodness and love.

Goodness and love have been given to us and they’re gifts we need to share, over and over again. And, that’s what I have to say about my faith aujourd’hui.

 

 

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Literature as a Bridge

Reading has always touched me deeply. I can’t remember my life before reading. I can remember my life before writing, but words and reading have always been in my world. Since I’ve joined the often lonely world of writing, I’ve come to appreciate – time and again – how powerful the written word can be. I remember reading a book to my baby brother and simply loving the play of words. It was Know What? No, What? and I adored it. I’d guess I was around seven or so and that book was a blast! As I grew up, of course different styles and different authors moved me. Mark Twain blew me away with Huck Finn. Hemingway was a kick in the pants. I couldn’t understand why other kids in school hated Nathaniel Hawthorne. Over the years my reading explorations grew so that now, I would be hard put to have to choose just one favorite author, but, at the moment, I’d still have to say that person for me is Marilynne Robinson.

Naturally, as I became more serious about writing, I sought out authors. Just over four years ago, I interviewed Alan Heathcock, author of an incredible short story collection, VOLT, here on Pamwrites. We had met briefly at the Tin House Summer Writers conference in 2010 and I’d been following his work via social media. My favorite part of that interview still resonates with me and is worth repeating:

What words of wisdom, hope or encouragement can you offer to the emerging authors out there in the blogosphere?

 I am a fervent proponent of the nurture side in the nature v. nurture debate.  I take this stance because my very first stories were awful.  They were.  In every possible way they were bad.  Over time, they got better.  I made a simple deal with myself: make progress.  No matter how little progress I was making at times, I simply decided to forge on, pushing, always trying to learn, to get better.  And so I did get better.  This book took me twelve years to write.  I just kept working on it until I felt it was the book I wanted to write, that everything was in its place.  Be patient, be persistent, be humble.  This is not a race.  And be brave enough to take yourself seriously.  The moment you decide to take yourself seriously, to look inward, you will stop imitating others and will become original.

“Be patient, be persistent, be humble. This is not a race. And be brave enough to take yourself seriously.” Words to live by in all pursuits, I think. (You can read that whole interview here.)

When I saw the opportunity to study with Alan in Chamonix, France at the Mont Blanc Writing Workshops, I jumped at the chance. Some regular readers of Pamwrites know that I’ve been a serial writer’s conference attendee. I had begun the blog and begun to appreciate that my words connected and resonated with some people. I began to feel a responsibility to get braver and to try to share more. But, I knew I needed to learn more – I wanted to study with not just established authors, but with authors whose work I respected. When I made that decision, I could not justify the time or expense of an MFA program (nor did I want to teach at the college level, so why get an MFA?), I did the math and determined that with careful planning, I could attend serious (i.e. juried) writer’s conferences for a number of years (I think ten had been the tipping point) and still not spend what I would have on an MFA. I’ve studied with some incredible writers and teachers and owe much gratitude to all of them:

Iowa Writer’s FestivalAmber Dermont

Tin House Writers WorkshopRobert Boswell (group) and Antonya Nelson (one-on-one)

NY State Summer WritersMarilynne Robinson and Siri Hustvedt

Aspen Summer WordsLuis Alberto Urrea

Bread Loaf SicilyLynne Freed

I had not intended to go to another international conference, but since I was already across the pond, my travel expenses to and from Chamonix were going to be considerably less than they would have been from Milwaukee. So, I applied and thankfully, was accepted.

Yesterday was our first session – getting to know each other and discussing the craft. Again, I have words for you to ponder from Alan Heathcock:

“The great grief of the human experience is that we are all separate….. there’s no amount of hope and no amount of love that can get us past that.”

“One of the best purposes of art is to act as a bridge between all of us who are separate.”

“The most empathetic of arts is literature.”

And, for now, I will leave you with that idea of the arts as a bridge between all of us who are separate. If you’ve put work out there, maybe you too know the unexpected joy of a reader (or viewer or audience member) contacting you to let you know what your work meant to them, what it did for them. That reaction is not usually (for me anyway) why I create, but it is a gift that touches me so deeply when it happens. It becomes the reason why I continue to write, that feeling that I can somehow reach across the great divide of time and space and maybe, just maybe, touch someone else’s heart. Maybe, just maybe, my words can be a bridge.

And, lest I leave you without a visual image, here’s a view from Chamonix. Sorry, no bridge pix here yet.:

 

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Glads and Sads

Our time in Glasgow is slipping away and it makes me alternately sad and glad. When I was helping back at Wauwatosa  Presbyterian Church with a confirmation group (mostly eighth and ninth graders), we would often begin sharing our “glads and sads.” It was refreshing in the course of our time together to watch them grow from bragging glads – “I got a 96 on the Biology test!” to more caring, thoughtful glads – “My aunt is feeling better after her surgery.” Don’t get me wrong – I don’t think it’s bad for any of them to have been happy about the test score. But when they could shift their glads to be about others, that’s when I really saw their growth. (NOT saying we shouldn’t rejoice about our own personal glads!)

Their sads were always more poignant – a gravely ill grandparent, a tragedy in a friend’s family, a death in our church family — I guess our hurts touch us, from a young age, in a deep, deep way. But, the results of that sharing was something that an adult leader of youth groups always hopes will happen – the creation of meaningful friendships. It made me think of this quote by Henri Nouwen:

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand.

I can say, truthfully and gratefully, that I’ve been blessed with close friends and family who have filled that role for me when I needed someone to share my pain and touch my wounds with a warm and tender hand. I can also say, truthfully, that I try to be that person for others when I can, and that I have to often fight the desire to give advice, solutions or cures. This seems to be especially difficult for me as a mother, but I’m working on it!
But, time to close with a few glads and sads because that’s all I have today.

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     ♦ My piece, “Purple Asteroid,” is up at Halfway Down the Stairs in the June issue. The theme is Strangers. My thanks to Alison Stedman, Senior Fiction Editor.
♦My younger son has gotten a part in a musical back in Wisconsin that I will be able to go to when I’m back!
♦My older son and his fiancé are moving along with wedding plans for next year.
♦My husband and I will be in Chamonix, France soon – he will do some climbing and I will be attending a writing conference!
♦I will be back in Wauwatosa, WI by the end of the month (a shower with good water pressure; a bed with some support; the Americans with Disabilities Act in full force so I don’t always have to climb or descend stairs to use a bathroom when I’m out) and will be happy to see my friends – and a little later in the summer, the rest of my family too.
♦Done Darkness, the anthology I’m working on with Kathy Lanzarotti, is moving forward and we hope to be able to announce a publication date in the next couple of weeks.

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♠A friend I made in Glasgow has returned to the U.S.
♠I will attend my last Glasgow Writer’s Group this week and I’m very sad about that. I will miss the stories, the laughter and the thoughtful critiques.
♦My knees have been bothering me – a lot. Hoping I will be able to manage a little hiking at least in Chamonix….
As you can see, my glads far outweigh my sads. I hope that’s the case for you too.

 

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Soulful Travel (or, No Eeyores Allowed)

 

“Soulful travel is the art of finding beauty even in ruins, even in inclement weather, even in foul moods.”

…..Phil Cousineau, The Art of Pilgrimage

Last week, I was exploring the Scottish Highlands with my husband. The weather wasn’t completely kind to us, as they like to say here. We both had things in mind that we hoped for from this trip — my husband is an avid hiker and climber. He was looking forward to a good trek on the Isle of Skye and way up north in Ullapool. I was looking forward to visiting the spiritual, quiet Isle of Iona and hoping for a glimpse of the Northern Lights. We missed seeing the Aurora Borealis by one day. They saw them on Iona the night before we got there. So close, and yet… Sometimes that’s how it goes.

We had spent several hours on the bus up from Glasgow to Inverness where we changed bus. Then, we went to Eileen Donan, a beautiful castle that we happened to hit on a spring day when the sun shone and the gorse glowed and the Scottish flag flew proudly.

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We ate cullen skink – a soup made with smoked haddock – in the cafe at the castle. Delicious. We marvelled at our luck, and hoped, hoped, hoped that somehow our luck would last onto Skye and intially, it did.

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Portree, the Isle of Skye, May, 2015

But the weather reports continued to be poor for the following day (our only full day), so we decided to book a tour and got the last two spots on a seven hour van tour of the island. We joined three traveling students and a family of three. Countries represented in the van were Switzerland, Hong Kong, India, the United States and Scotland. Donald Nicholson, our fearless, hilarious driver/guide with Skye Scenic Tours tried SO hard to show us his beautiful island. The rain got worse and worse and showed no signs of letting up. We saw the Kilt Rock through pouring rain and blustery wind, waterfalls and Donald assured us there were lovely mountains behind the clouds. Fortunately, everyone in the van kept their senses of humor. We had no Eeyores among us and for that, I was very grateful! We agreed to go to Eileen Donan again because no one else had been yet and it seemed like a better wet day option. We enjoyed another fine bowl of cullen skink there and hoped, along with Donald, for a break in the rain, but it wasn’t meant to be. The traveling students were at a hostel far outside of Portree, so they requested a stop at a grocery store, for beer. We picked up one or two ourselves, along with some croissants for the morning. After resupplying, with still no break in the rain, we all agreed to call it quits on the tour. From the reviews I’ve read, and friends I’ve spoken to, I am sure this is a rare occurence on the tours in Skye — rain is not so rare, but steady, day-long, pounding rain accompanied by cold, cold winds is not so common. What’s more common are sporadic showers which makes outside touring much more possible — and outside is where you want to be on Skye. Try it if you can, but maybe allow a little more time there than we did to increase your chances for a good tour. And, don’t allow rain to lead to a foul mood – be open to what might come. If you’re not open, you might miss it.

That evening we had dinner at Sea Breezes, a fabulous small restaurant a friend recommended to us along the harbor in Portree. (Get a reservation.) During dinner, the rain stopped for a while, the sun came out, and yes, a rainbow graced our meal.

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So we ended our day on Skye, not tired out from hiking, but enjoying a beautiful moment in a beautiful spot together. And my friends, I think that is what Phil Cousineau would call “soulful travel.”

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Deeply Good People

First, a confession. I rarely read The New York Times. I know, my bad. Especially as a writer. But here’s the thing – when I was a freshman in college, I remember two seniors talking about The New York Times like it was their bible, like anything else, anything at all, was not a source worth considering. These were sophisticated, wealthy, yes, privileged young women. And they soured me, at the impressionable age of seventeen, on the NYT. I had some kind of reverse snobbery come in to play and I thought, well, if that’s what snotty rich people read then I won’t. Yes, yes. I know. Doesn’t make sense. To this day – to my shame – my eyes glaze over when someone starts spouting NYT news or features or, God forbid, book reviews. But when articles pop into my Facebook feed from friends and writers I respect, I do open them, I do read them, and more often than not, I am beyond impressed.

Recently, David Brooks‘s editorial The Moral Bucket List is one of those pieces. It didn’t just speak to me, it sang. Take a look at his first paragraph:

ABOUT once a month I run across a person who radiates an inner light. These people can be in any walk of life. They seem deeply good. They listen well. They make you feel funny and valued. You often catch them looking after other people and as they do so their laugh is musical and their manner is infused with gratitude. They are not thinking about what wonderful work they are doing. They are not thinking about themselves at all.

Oh, I do know what he’s talking about. I too love those people with all my being. My prayers, my most frequent prayers are these: Help me be a blessing. And, help me be in the center of your will. And I guess those prayers really add up to one thing – help me strive to be a “deeply good” person. I am so not that person, but I want to keep trying.

Brooks goes on to talk about the “resume virtues and the eulogy virtues.” In a true Julia Cameron moment of synchronicity, I also stumbled on a report yesterday of a young mother, Beth O’Rourke, in Paxton, MA who wrote her own obituary. So much of her words make clear that she was a “deeply good” person, but I doubt she ever, ever would have thought that! She was likely, as Brooks would say, a “stumbler,” someone who tries, repeatedly, despite obstacles, to do better. Or, as he more gracefully puts it, “The stumbler doesn’t build her life by being better than others, but by being better than she used to be.”

Please, if you haven’t yet read Beth O’Rourke’s obituary or David Brooks’ editorial, do yourself a favor and read them now or bookmark them and read them later. Then give them both some pondering time. Please.

And, if you happen to be in need of an ear worm, you’ll know what song has been stuck in my head since I’ve been thinking about this post:

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Photography, Travel & Springtime in Paris

Let photography quickly enrich the traveller’s album, and restore to his eyes the precision his memory may lack;….. Let it save crumbling ruins from oblivion, books, engravings, and manuscripts, the prey of time, all those precious things, vowed to dissolution, which crave a place in the archives of our memories; in all these things, photography will deserve our thanks and applause. But if once it be allowed to impinge on the sphere of the intangible and the imaginary, on anything that has value solely because man adds something to it from his soul, then woe betide us!
– Charles Baudelaire

I’ve been sharing many photos of our travels on my Facebook page. I’ve been so happy with the comments and the feedback. I try hard not to share every photo I take, but to be choosy and share the ones that speak to me, that touch me in some way. I think often of Baudelaire’s worries about photography. He was quite appalled by it when it first came out and worried how much it would impinge on la culture francaise.

I was introduced to this idea decades ago in a French literature class at Wesleyan University, taught by Norm Shapiro, who happened to also teach a semester class of American Sign Language and share practice sessions with some of us at the on-campus pub over beers. Needless to say, Prof. Shapiro was a hero in my eyes.

We are in Paris now – soon to leave. And we have landed here for the most perfect springtime in Paris weather. We are lucky. We are blessed. For my husband and I – though we’ve been fortunate to travel many places, sometimes together, sometimes apart — Paris is still our favorite city. I’ve been here more times than I’ve been in New York City or Chicago or possibly even Boston, which is in the state I grew up in. We’ve been here enough that we no longer feel the mad obligations tourists sometimes experience — we MUST see the Louvre, the d’Orsay, the Picasso, Notre Dame, la Tour Eiffel, the Cluny, la Sainte Chapelle — whatever your list of MUSTS might be. So, for the perfect day yesterday, we wandered. Our hotel is not far from the Eiffel Tower and we have a small view of it at night from our window:

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We wandered through a garden and playground near the American University in Paris. I asked a mother there with her children if I could take a picture but she didn’t want them in the photo, so I didn’t. But the area there, looked like this:

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As we wandered, we wondered if we could ever spend longer in Paris — a summer or a semester? Could we figure it out? My husband doesn’t speak French, but his pronunciation is improving dramatically and if he studied, he could. So, who knows?
We spent a long time walking over bridges and along the Seine, because, well, here’s why:

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And also, because of this:

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And this:

 
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And let’s not forget, children playing, business folks enjoying lunch, happiness in abundance:

 

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In the afternoon, we landed in the garden park at the back of Notre Dame, where I had a lovely conversation with an older gentleman who reminded me of my great-Uncle John, and this man’s name was Jean and he was of Polish descent too. I have some notes of things I must look up after my long chat, en Francais, avec Jean. Be sure I know that I am fortunate to be able to converse – not perfectly – but well enough, in French, that I’ve been able to meet and chat with several folks. My conversations with Tim on the train from Carcassone to Nimes, and with Nathalie on the train from Nimes to Paris were also moments when I believe God winked. I don’t have pictures of Jean, Tim or Nathalie. I kind of wish I had them, I do admit that. But in these cases, there is a sanctity in choosing not to encase them in the format Baudelaire feared. I don’t want to disturb the “sphere of the intangible.” My conversations with them remain, pour toujours, in that sphere.

(For my writer friends, you may find some of these photos to be good writing prompts. J’espere que oui.)

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Dentists & Directions Abroad

I have a small chip in a front tooth. With the help of my son back in the states, I touched base with my dentist and found out that he recommended I see someone here rather than wait the two and a half months until I’m back in Wisconsin. I was uneasy. It’s not odontophobia, or fear of the dentist. No, no, it’s something far worse and inexplicable.

Fear of British dentists. Thank Sir Laurence Olivier in Marathon Man (never mind that he was playing a Nazi dentist, we all knew he was British).

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No, it doesn’t actually have anything to do with those awful scenes from Marathon Man. If you don’t already know, there’s this stereotype in America about horrible British teeth. I don’t know if that’s supposed to be from people avoiding dentists, or lack of fluoridated water, or could it be, God forbid, horrible dentists? Americans think of British teeth not unlike the Austin Powers images (not saying the stereotype is fair or warranted, just saying it exists and I’ve grown up indoctrinated with it.)!

 
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But….I googled and called a few dentist offices near my flat and made an appointment for this morning. Off I went, into the dreary grey morning, walking the 9 tenths of a mile to the office. On the way, an older gentleman with a professional air and a red scarf looked a little lost at a corner not far from George’s Square. We made eye contact and he approached asking if I knew where the post office was. In my family, I am famous for being directionally challenged. But, as it happened, I had just passed the post office – and noticed it – about half a block before. So, I told the man where it was and pointed. The expected question followed, which happens often when I speak here in Glasgow, “Where are you from?”
“Wisconsin, in the United States.”
“Ah, America. I love America. I’ve been to lots of places in America, but I love Miami,” he said as the drizzle developed some energy. And I thought, yes, well I wouldn’t mind being in Miami myself right now.
And then he said something I couldn’t follow, and I asked, and he repeated it, but I’m still not sure what he said. Anyway, he thanked me and I proceeded on to the dentist, feeling rather pleased with myself. I gave someone – a Scottish person no less – directions! And, they were accurate directions. My self-confidence soared. What was the deal with my worrying about a dentist appointment? Silly me. On I went until I found the right address for the dentist. I walked in, pushing my British odontophobia away, and rang the bell for help. A young man and woman in blue scrubs approached. The man spoke first. “Can I help?”
“I have an appointment for 9:30. Pam Parker.”
“Right then, let me look you up right here……” He typed on a keyboard and looked at a computer screen. “Hmmmm….You’re sure it’s here then?”
“Yes, 9:30.”
“Right, well, I think the best thing to do is to check right around the corner there. I bet that’s where you’re supposed to be.”
I started to step outside wondering what in the world was going on. I was at the right address, I was sure of it. When I stepped around the corner, I did see another dental clinic, but with a completely different name. So, I returned to the first one.
“I think something’s wrong. I have a phone confirmation of the appointment for the clinic with this name.” I showed the message to the young woman.
“Oh, I see the problem. You’re expected at our Clydebank office.”
“Clydebank? Where’s that?” All that feeling rather pleased with myself from my earlier opportunity to provide directions vanished.

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Thankfully, it’s all been sorted out and I have an appointment tomorrow at the office that I walked to this morning. I’m pretty sure. Yup, I’m sure. Oh boy.

Have a good day.

 

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Sense of Connection & Living Abroad

The Atlantic published an article yesterday called For a More Creative Brain, Travel: How international experiences can open the mind to new ways of thinking. I’ve written before about how I wish my friends could have the opportunity to live abroad because living far away from home does different things for me than vacationing away. The article is discussing a study by Adam Galinsky, Columbia Business School professor, on the impacts of travel on creativity. And, yes, I believe that’s true, travel can absolutely have a positive effect on creativity, but what appealed to me more in this article was the following quote :

“Cross-cultural experiences have the potential to pull people out of their cultural bubbles, and in doing so, can increase their sense of connection with people from backgrounds different than their own. ‘We found that when people had experiences traveling to other countries it increased what’s called generalized trust, or their general faith in humanity,’ Galinsky says. ‘When we engage in other cultures, we start to have experience with different people and recognize that most people treat you in similar ways. That produces an increase in trust.’”

It’s the “sense of connection” that matters most to me when I travel, when I write, and truly, as I live. The calendar is sliding toward my 55th birthday and as I reflect on where I am and where I’ve been, I recognize a need I’ve always had for connections. In addition, I think it’s fair to say I’ve had a need as well to be a bridge, to help form and foster connections. I’m grateful for that desire, and for any ways I can be an effective bridge.

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Pictures and words can help with connections, I do believe that. The picture above was taken not far from where I’ve been living the past three months. It’s true, “People Make Glasgow.” But really, for humans, people make just about everywhere, don’t they? The exceptions being those rare places where we go to leave people behind. But more often than not, what we seek is a sense of connection, n’est-ce pas? Maybe it’s that “sense of connection” which has driven my obsession (as my husband calls it) with taking laundry pictures everywhere I go. Who knows? More on that later.

Over the next few days, I will post some more pictures from my travels – talking about any connections I’ve made and letting you form your own.

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